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My Story You will find pieces of my story, on every single page of this website because we all write from our own personal perceptions. Writing has been very therapeutic, and it began with fear of what I wrote and how would others perceive it. After almost 48 years I have come to realize that how I have lived my life from a fear-based belief system. Many of us do, and today the goal is about continuing to transform this fear based belief system into a love based belief system.
It is extremely challenging to be able to look through our stories, and not take so many things personally. Learning to empower ourselves, and continuing to find balance requires that we look past all of the evidence that would make things appear a certain way, look through the ego, both in our own self and others, and see the real truth. The real truth is that we are all doing our best with the resources we have. We react and behave in certain ways based on the perceptions that we believe. We have to be willing to look at our own self and take responsibility for how we continue to create our reality. Change can be a fearful experience.This part of my story, began with what appeared to be another crisis in my life, a wake up call, and it felt as if someone else was responsible. Today I do understand and have compassion for my self and compassion for others, knowing that I can not change anyone other than me.
FEAR for me, stands for everything that has kept me frozen and stuck. Fear stands for all the times I felt powerless, and hopeless, and for all the times I betrayed my own self. I did so every time I saw myself as not being good enough, strong enough or perfect at every moment in time. I did so every time I felt victimized by someone else. I felt this way every time I pointed the finger out, and blamed others for the way my life had become. We all need to realize how choose to stay in situations because no matter how chaotic, abusive or destructive they may be, and no matter how many times we may say we deserve better, deep down inside this comfort zone can become a form of security. It can become so very easy to stay with what we know rather than what we don't know. This change can feel forced on on, and there were times, I resented this change. I still get these feelings today,and these feelings remind me that I have many more layers to heal. It feels good today, to know that layer by layer the fear is removed. Change is a positive thingIf we all began to take responsibility for ourselves I do believe there would be less chaos in this world.If every time we felt inclined to blame someone else for our problems we chose to see what issues this situation was bringing up for us, we could create peace around us and it would continue to ripple outward. I make a difference in my life by taking responsibility for my self, and taking back my power. This is the part of all of our stories which we can all change once we see it and this is my intent . Remember to take the time to write down your story, and begin to notice the patterns, and begin to find the clues to heal your life today. Death and Dying has been a very big part of my story**
The Death of a Child*****
What is Abuse?**
The only mind I can heal is my own**
Breaking the Cycle **
Counseling
Books and Workshops Speak Up The Essentials, and how they helped make sense of my story
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