My Story.......Today I know that I have much to offer, and more importantly, I know that if I can create these changes in me, I believe you can do the same for yourself. Today, as I continue working on my story, I am willing to be the only one who sees and hears me. Everything I was looking for from others, acknowledgment, acceptance, and most importantly love, I find in me. I am using my story to continue.....to work on me. The purpose of my story is to make me aware. Doing my best to stay out of everyone's story. It also becomes a big part of learning to see things differently. This is the awareness, which continues to grow and keeps me consciously awake and on purpose. There is so much more to all of us, which we begin to discover when we continue to work through our fears. There is more to you than just your story, and as you begin to see the patterns in your story you begin to understand your purpose. Our stories can make us lose touch with reality if we are not consciously aware of this. Most of us understand how certain events in our past are responsible for the way we live our lives today. My story includes sexual abuse, loss, family disputes, emotional and verbal abuse,to name a few and my perception was that this has created a fear. My life has been lived, based on those experiences. We all do this, and we use these events to explain ourselves, and make excuses. Today, I get that these were wake up calls. I used to believe that because I was aware and had worked through most of these issues, and because I understood the concept, this would be enough to end it. The Truth has been very different. Understanding the concept and having good intent to be different works great when we are feeling really good and everything is going great. It's what happens when we find ourselves smack dab in the middle of a crisis or situation. This is when the real work has to take place. It is at these times when our conditioned programming takes over, and we lose touch and our feelings and emotions take over and reenact and the cycle continues. This is very normal and the more we work on these conditions from our past.....the more we change ourselves and our thoughts. These crisis situations recreate the fears which trigger us and this is when we are asleep, unaware, and unconsciously caught up in our story The good news is, we can all choose to change and it is a process which is always ongoing. Working through these feelings and emotions is our own responsibility because this is the only way to change our own minds. Facing my feelings and emotions are showing me what I am needing to work on. Changing takes more than just reading about it. It involves the willingness to consciously commit to working on myself, and to trust that everything happens for a reason, trusting and allowing the process to unfold. Yes, this is a life long commitment, and this is hard work. The pieces of the puzzle finally fit together. Every experience has a purpose and is the way it is meant to be. As we all take the steps to Heal ourself, our inner child, we heal the planet. This new way, seems unfamiliar, and takes practice. Blaming others for the way things are keeps us stuck, makes us powerless. Whenever we blame others, we are truly blaming ourselves. A part of ourselves which we see in the other and refuse to see and face in ourselves. When we can accept this, we allows ourselves the opportunity to work on the issues at hand, and find forgiveness for self because this is what it's all about. Forgiveness, and healing self creates the change and this is how my story serves me. Some call it spirituality, energy, or understanding of the Universal Laws. We have created the experiences in our lives and we can remember and heal. All Our Stories are our past, and they do continue to live in our present. Learning to Love and Embrace all of you includes all of your feelings; the good and the bad ones, because they are meant to be felt and expressed. You are feeling them for a very important reason, and it's for you and about you rather than anyone around you. They are meant for you. Relationships that never seem to work. Constant situations where you find yourself in turmoil. Problems dealing with others, constant conflicts or feelings of insecurities, and sadness. Hiding these feelings and pretending they don't exist will create many different types of behaviors, many types of illnesses, accidents, and any other situation which just doesn't feel right.I invite you to take the time to write about you. Begin writing your own story and keeping your own journal. Write down every thing you remember. Keep adding to it daily. Creating your own auto-biography takes time, and will stir up many feelings and emotions and sometimes the excuses we give ourselves is really our ego doing it's best to convince us that this is ridiculous since the ego will do everything it can to continue to make itself right. Remember that once you begin, and it is important that you begin at the very beginning of your recollections, you will see how the feelings and emotions it brings up are the same feelings and emotions you may want to look at in your current issues today. These same feelings and emotions are what you are re-experiencing over and over until you heal them. Begin looking at Your Family of Origin. It's your blue print.Another interesting piece of information is a family tree. This too is beneficial because it allows you to see the similaritiesfrom generation to generation. Keeping your own journal, will allow you to get your thoughts and fears out of your head and down on paper. As you write these down on paper from your head to your heart your body may re experience the feelings and emotions. Find a quiet place to do this, and allow yourself the time to cry and express yourself through your tears. Tears help cleanse the toxins which create diseases and illness. My story, is exactly the way it's meant to be. Seeing and accepting my story, begins the healing process. With the healing comes freedom. We can continue to live in our stories, and allow this to take over and keep us stuck, frozen, and we will continue repeating the same story (pattern) over and over again..... If you've begun writing your own auto biography you may already see the patterns. My story helps me understand myself and helps me see how I create my experiences and yes why. The why is because I'm the lucky one. If you were reading this page hoping to read my story, begin looking at your own story. This is where you will find your answers.
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