My darling daughter gone too soon

by Shannon
(Alpena Mi)

Hello my name is Shannon, and I was 25 when my daughter Adrianna Marie was born.

The whole pregnancy seemed like it was 1 thing after another. The morning that she was born, was on March 26, 2010. I got up out of bed, and it felt as though my water had broke. I hurried to the restroom to see that it was all blood.

I was the only one home at the time. My son was with my mother in-law and my husband was at work. I called the hospital and called my husband.

When I arrived at the hospital it felt as though time had stopped, before they decided that they were going to break my water. I had a very hard labor, even though it was very fast.

Adrianna was 7.9lbs and 21.5 inches long when she was born.

The next 6 weeks seemed to fly by. She was eating like crazy; gaining weight, and very happy!

The only time she ever cried, was when she wanted to eat, which on average was every 3 to 4 hrs.

On May 6th, I went into have my tubal ligation, since it was decided that it would be a good idea that I not have any more children.

My daughter stayed with my mother in-law and my son too. I wasn't able to pick either of them up, due to them being over 10lbs, so my grandmother decided that she would take Adrianna for a couple of nights so that I could get back on my feet.

My grandmother brought Adrianna home for a while on Saturday May 8th, while she went to have dinner to celebrate mothers day with my cousins.

Adrianna, when she arrived, seemed like she was not her self. She was making this strange grunting sound, and her eyes kept crossing.

My husband and I decided we should take her into the hospital, here in town. Just as we were talking about taking her in, my mother in-law, came by and she watched our son while we took her in. That was the longest day in my life. When we got to the hospital, they took her back right away, and had her hooked her up to all these monitors. Rushed her for a cat scan and than the Doctor that was performing, grabbed her with out telling me or my husband what was going on and ran down to the ER with her in the bed. He yelled, shes not breathing... My husband and I looked at each other, then the next thing I knew, a nurse and my husband were carrying me to a private family room, where our family had started to meet us.

They were able to revive her. They said that she was ill and had septis.... The Doctor came in and said that they had a helicopter coming to get her, and were taking her to a hospital down state, Ann Arbour.

It seemed like an eternity, for them to get there.

The Doctor here wouldn't tell us much at all.

The flight crew came up to my husband and I, and said, that our daughter was very ill. They wouldn't let me fly with her down. I wanted to stay with her.

We had to drive there. It was a 4 hr drive for us.

She later passed away on May 9th 2010. On Mothers day.. of bacterial meningitis.... It spread through her whole body. I was there to help give her, her last bath. The whole family, that was with us, were able to hold her for the last time, before she passed away in my arms. at 3:07pm. That is the same time she came into this world.

She was only 6 weeks, and 2 days old. There's not a day, that goes by, when i don't think of her and miss her so much.

It breaks my heart, when my son, who will be three, in May, asks about her. Then he looks at me, and says that he needs her. We have Adrianna's pictures hanging up around the house, and her ashes are on our mantle.

I tell my son, that she is in heaven, and she's his gardening angle. She is looking out for him.

I also tell him, that he can talk to her, at any time he wants.

This May, will be the first year.

We just went through her 1st birthday.... I miss her so much. I continue to ask why.