When I was pregnant with my son I thought I was the most beautiful mother-to-be. And then 20 years later when we lost our special boy, I thought that no one could ever feel this much pain. And yes, I feel the fear you speak of "if this could happen once, it's also possible to happen again". When you lose a child you realize how little control you actually have in life. It's a reality that strips you of any chance of having a carefree life again, nothing will ever be the same. It's been a year and a half and still I cry endlessly. In my head I know he is gone, but my heart may never let go. As bereaved mothers our tears fall as if love songs to our children. Reading your story makes me believe that I too can someday find joy in my other grandchildren.
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Keep on Fighting. by: Anonymous
I am so sorry for your loss, you are a true winner! Keep on fighting! Don't give up!
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