When I first began reading the book Conversations With God, I felt like what was being written in the book was was being written for me.
My perceptions, and understanding of the book was based on my interpretations of what was being said.That part I realized right away.
Conversations With God
I found that although, I had every intention of reading it from front to back, I actually began scanning through it, wanting to get to a certain part, or a certain answer.
As I continued reading the first few chapters of Conversations with God, I realized that after years of saying that my Catholic upbringing created fear, and after years of thinking that I had outgrown my fears and yes, after years of believing that I verbally spoke my truth; I still feared God. I still did not have all the answers. I still found myself wanting to get to the part where God or Neale, or someone gave me the answers.
AS I continued reading, I felt my own skeptic thoughts coming up again. The fear I felt stirring up inside of me, was still there.
Did I Still Fear God?
I realized that I could verbally say whatever I wanted to say.
I could continue to deny my fears for as long as I wanted to. I could fool the world, and the people in my life.
I couldn't however fool myself.
What I began to realize, was that this process had been going on for years, and I was doing everything in my power to maintain an image, and a perception of who I was, not so much for myself but to everyone around me.
I pictured groups of people pointing their fingers at me, saying you are condemned to a life of hell, because you do not believe.
You will go to hell if you deny GOD.
It turned out that........
Making My Peace With God
was and still is part of my process. The Answer is really simple....Love Yourself and Live Your SpiritAs I continue to work on me, I am working my way to being at Peace with God and that image of what God is is different than the image I believed God to be when I was younger.